Dream: I am standing on my porch, it is evening, and I am regarding a box of vintage glass beads, running my finger through them to admire their colors and shapes. I fumble the box and it tumbles, spilling beads all over the boards of the porch. I bend down to start gathering them back into the box when I look up to see the landscape around me.
Directly in front of me is a leopard, or tiger, I can’t tell. It is big and fierce, and very close. Behind this animal the hills that surround my house are on fire. Ashes are raining down. A mudslide/flood is streaming down one of the hillsides. I look back down at the beads and start picking them up.
At first I thought this dream meant that I was focusing on minutia while big things were happening all around me. But after sitting with it for a while, I think it means: yes, there are gigantic scary things happening, but you need to focus on taking care of the problems that are right in front of you, the ones you can fix right now, one step at a time. Focus on those and don’t let yourself get overwhelmed by the big picture.
Spilled Beads, completed 10/19/2018, is 24″ x 18″ oil on wood and is available for viewing in my studio.